Why I Moved To Mexico

Why I Moved To Mexico

I moved to Mexico for four reasons. The first was economic, but the other reasons were just as compelling. Most importantly, I feel alive here.


What To Do When You’re Scared And Freaking Out

It’s hard to be scared. Here’s how to go from Scared & Freaking Out to cool as a cucumber in just 4 easy steps. And you might even discover you have a superpower along the way.

Okay, you’re scared. It’s time to talk about scared.

I know about being scared. Just today I spent the better part of an hour freaking out inside and feeling super scared about something that is going on right now in my life. A big something with a capital B-big.

After an hour of feeling scared, I thought that was enough. So I decided to do something about it.

I will tell you what I did to talk myself through my scaredyness and freaking out-y-ness, because I know that sometimes we feel scared. And it feels terrible. I know it feels terrible. It feels hopeless and terrifying and impossible. We want someone or something to make it all better when it feels like this.

I will walk you through your scared place to the other side of it. I can’t make it all better but I can hold your hand and tell you some things that will help change your experience right now (if you are feeling scared now), or some other day down the road when you need it.

But first, I have a question.

Is this you? You’ve come to the right place.

What is it, exactly, that you are scared of?

I have a hypothetical friend who is a writer. She is writing a book and from time to time I lend a willing ear while she talks things through so she can get to the next step of writing her book. One day she told me she felt stuck. Couldn’t write a word, or the words were coming so slowly that snails were racing one another across the pages and were winning.

(small detour while you consider what happens when snails race across the book you’re trying to write)

“Okay, you’re stuck,” I said. “What are you afraid of?”

“I am afraid I will never finish this book, ” she said. “It will never get written. No one will hear my story. If no one hears my story, I am afraid it isn’t important. I’m afraid I’M not important and that I DON’T MATTER.”


Maybe what you fear isn’t of not mattering. Maybe it’s something else, something closer to home that kicks you in the gut.

Maybe you fear the dark. Maybe you fear heights. Maybe you fear failing an important test. Maybe you fear failing, or NOT failing, or that someone long ago was right about you when they said you’d never be happy or amount to much.

Figuring out what you are really scared of isn’t easy.

Our minds play tricks on us that make it hard to find out what really scares us. We think we fear one thing but there is almost always, 99 times out of 100, something deeper and darker that we are REALLY scared of.

Monsters need darkness, so shine some light!

So, to figure out what to do when you feel scared, first you have to lay all your cards on the table. Get some light on what scares you. When your fears are in the dark, they get stronger. They have more power. Have you noticed that?

Remember when you were little and you had to check under your bed for monsters? You just knew that if you dangled a foot over the edge of the bed, or made a run for it to get to the bathroom, you’d be swallowed up by the horrible monster under your bed, right? But did you ever notice that you NEVER SAW THE MONSTER IN DAYLIGHT? That’s because monsters need darkness. So get yours out into the light.

Quickest fix on the planet for being scared: breathe.

Step #1. First, Breathe!

Our bodies are quite amazing. They protect us from all sorts of threats. This is one reason we have survived so long as a species, because our bodies instinctively knew what to do when there were saber tooth tigers nearby.

What Happens In Our Body When We Are Scared

The problem is, when we feel scared ALL THE TIME, we forget to tell our hypothalamus to chill out.

Hypothalamus? That’s the part of our brain that goes “OMG OMG Tigers!” and then does a fight-flight-or-freeze response so we don’t get eaten by tigers and miss all the episodes of So You Think You Can Dance that we haven’t yet caught up on.

The hypothalamus activates the sympathetic nervous system, making us tense and alert. It also tells the adrenal-cortical system to dump a cocktail of hormones into our system. Eeek!

We Stop Breathing When We Are Scared

The result of all this (OMG OMG Tigers!) is that we stand ready for fight, flight, or freeze. One way of being ready is by regulating the breath: when we feel scared we take quick little shallow breaths from the top of our chest.

So when you are feeling scared about, say, failing a test, your body is interpreting this as OMG OMG Tigers! And you aren’t breathing.

Slow Down Your Breath — Here’s How

Slow down your breathing. Freaking out? A little? Right now? Then breathe. Relax your belly. Breathe down into your lower belly. Place your feet flat on the floor. Breathe down into the soles of your feet. Nice, full, deep breaths.

Works like a charm. You’ve now done Step #1. Return to Step #1 as often as you need to.

Or! Bonus! Sometimes when you breathe, you get space for Perspective. Which means that the horrible Thing that you were afraid of isn’t that horrible after all. Like in the morning when the monsters go back under the bed where they came from.

Still scared? Then you are ready for Step #2, Operation Daylight.

Shine light on your fears to make them less scary.

Step #2. Operation Daylight

Ask yourself, What is the worst thing that can happen?

I know what you are thinking. You are thinking that if you think about the worst thing that can happen, that YOU WILL MAKE THAT BAD THING COME TRUE. You will get stuck in suck, an endless whirlpool of What If and Things Gone Horribly Wrong.

I am here to tell you that it doesn’t work that way. You have magic superpowers, yes, but making your worst fear come true is not one of them. Not if you do it the way I am going to tell you.

Be Ridiculous

So when you ask yourself what is the worst thing that can happen, really go into it. Don’t hold back. Be ridiculous.

Don’t Stop…

If, like my writer-friend, you worry that you will never finish your project, then go all the way with it. Don’t stop with, “I have this nameless fear about never finishing this book.”

Keep Going…

Keep going. Think about what could happen when you do not ever finish your book. Your story stays inside you. No one reads it. No one truly “gets” you. Your story isn’t important. You aren’t important. Ouch.

Still with me?

In this hypothetical Worst Case Scenario, you live a life that is unimportant.

Now It’s Your Turn

Tap into YOUR Worst Case Scenario. Feel what it feels like for a sec. Stay with it.

Go Even Deeper

Now, go deeper. What does living your Worst Case Scenario say about you? Or, rather, what are you afraid it might say about you?

  • That you’re a loser?
  • That you are invisible?
  • That you are a fuck-up?
  • That no one likes you?
  • That you don’t deserve good things?
  • That you are alone?
  • That you’ll be rejected?

Chances are, a fear of not finishing your creative project comes from a deeper fear like one of these. These are pretty universal fears.

Operation Daylight Works On ANY Fear

You can apply Operation Daylight on any fear — deep down, there is always a primal fear that we touch the edge of when we feel into one of our surface fears.

Now that you are open and vulnerable and feeling into the Deep Suck of your primal fear, it’s time to throw open the doors and windows and really get into your fear.

Now we are going to play What If.

What If is a powerful game of questions

Step #3. A Little Game I Call “What If…?”

Playing What If can be amazingly empowering. All sorts of good things open up and appear magically when you LET GO of what you’ve resisted and instead OPEN UP to All That is. There is true gold inside your fear! You’re far more awesome than you might think. You just have to get inside it enough to see the gold.

Here Is How To Play “What If “

Try on what it feels to be what you most fear. Try it on and wear it like a really cool and unusual outfit.

For instance — you don’t think you’re much of a Steampunk person? You never know until you’ve strapped on a pair of goggles over your top hat — maybe Steampunk really IS you, the You that was deep inside underneath.

Try on your fears the way you might try on a maxi dress, or a thong — you don’t know how it feels until you let yourself FEEL it.

A “What If” Example

Here’s an example of how playing What If might go if you apply it to the fear of Being a Loser:

What If…  you are a loser?

If I am a loser then no one likes me. No one ever calls me. My clothes probably smell, because I’m too depressed to do my laundry. I eat a lot of cookies, because, why not? I watch a lot of TV.

[insert voice of Pretend Dr. Sigmund Freud, pushing his glasses up on his nose and scribbling notes on a pad while you talk and recline on his super comfy couch]

[Pretend Freud: Yes, yes…go on…]

If I am a loser, I lose my job. I have to get another job.  But everyone knows I am a loser, so I can’t get a job in my old field anymore. I have to do something else…. something…

[Pretend Freud: Yes, yes…go on…]

I watch a LOT of TV. Boy, do I ever know TV! Huh. I could write way better scripts than they can. With one hand tied behind my back. Hey! Maybe I should! I should write screenplays! That would be…like…fun!

[Pretend Freud: So you have hypothetically let go of your job? Very in-te-res-ting. How does that feel?]

It feels…good. I’m a loser. HEY! I’M A LOSER! I have nothing to lose. Because I AM a loser. No one expects anything of me. I can let go of pleasing. I can let go of trying. I can do what I want. Make use of all that TV I’ve watched all these years. I can just be… me.

And… I’m NOT a loser. I was just afraid that I was one, so… I kind of WAS one. Huh.

Next up: fire Dr. Freud, get off that couch, and turn your frown upside down.

That yellow one is going to be you in just a moment

Step #4. Turn That Frown Upside Down

Congratulations! You touched into your deep fear, and you walked in it.  You found out that what scared you wasn’t so scary after all.

Now go tell someone else about it.

Reclaim Your Power

There is power in sharing yourself. your story, and your process. There is power in opening a part of yourself to someone else and letting them take you in — the new, bigger You.

Ready To Take Action

Once you share your fear with someone, you are ready to take action. You’re no longer reacting to tigers. You can choose wisely and choose well, and from a place that helps you make better and better choices in the future.

Congratulations. That’s what “facing your fears” REALLY is.

Here’s How My Fear Turned Out

By the way, remember the thing I was afraid of? Well, I slayed that bad boy.

First I breathed. Then I listened in and deep to my inner voice. I heard what it was I was really afraid of. And I chose to keep the door closed to the Whirlpool of Suck and to instead focus on my Daring Plan of Action. And now I am telling you about it.

My fear? A silly thing about money — not having any. My deeper fear was that my work doesn’t matter, that I don’t matter. My way through was to focus on what I know that does matter, and how that feels. And now I have told you. Thanks for listening.

You’ve Got a Friend

When you’re down, and troubled, and you need a helping hand…

Sometimes, Steps #2 & #3 are not that easy to do alone. It can really help to have someone hold your hand and walk you through the process and help you really feel into your fears and not get stuck in Suck.

I promise you that Operation Daylight, What If, and Turn That Frown Upside Down really work — even when you do them alone — but taking that first step to walk through your Doorway of Suck can be terrifying.

If You Need A Hand To Hold

If you feel afraid in your life and you want to walk through your fear once and for all, consider having someone hold your hand. A Private Channeling Session is perfect for that kind of handholding. Let me be there for you.

What If You Read This And You’re Still Scared? Some Resources For Immediate Relief

Sometimes strong feelings of fear don’t go away very easily. That’s when you should connect with someone whose whole job is to help people just like you. Here are some resources:

Crisis Text Hotline: text the word HOME to 741741 right from your phone, available 24/7. Free to text (charges may apply depending on your data plan). 

24-Hour Crisis Hotline 212-673-3000, from the Samaritans, a non-religious group that’s part of the world’s oldest and largest suicide prevention network with over 400 centers in 42 countries.

Teen Line 310-855-4673 or text TEEN to 839863. The line is open from 6pm – 10pm Pacific time every night. The website has LOTS of great answers to really hard questions.

Super long list of hotlines and helplines for almost any occasion.

(Here’s information on what to expect when you call a helpline. It can be scary to reach out to someone you don’t know, but people who staff helplines are trained to know how to help you feel comfortable and safe.)

Resources To Make Your Fear Go Away Forever

Last but not least, here are a couple of options to help you better understand your fears and make them go away once and for all.

Immediate healing and relief, plus information on your fear patterns and what causes them: Shamanic Healing.

Remember your magnificence (you are so much bigger than your fear!) and what you’re on the planet to do with a Life Destiny Reading.

Find out what your future holds, to cast light on what might otherwise seem dark with a Wild & Delicious Life Forecast.

Quick Reminder Of The Steps To Banish Your Fear

Step 1: Breathe. Nice deep breaths down into your belly.

Step 2: Operation Daylight. Your fear’s worst case scenario.

Step 3: What If.  What if your worst case scenario is true? (hint: it’s not)

Step 4: Turn That Frown Upside Down. Reclaim your power and tell someone about your fear and what you discovered.

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Shamanic HealingLife Destiny ReadingDive Into Your Destiny, Past Lives Destiny Arc Reading, Wild & Delicious Life Forecast and The Quintessence.

Or, for zero channeling but lots of bravery: Magical Goddess Journey

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Why I Moved To Mexico

Why I Moved To Mexico

I moved to Mexico for four reasons. The first was economic, but the other reasons were just as compelling. Most importantly, I feel alive here.

Say hi! Ask a question!

I'd love to hear from you.